All Grown Up

Prompt: When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

Hm…it would probably be pretty recent.

While my partner and I were enjoying a private hot spring we got to talking and I expressed how now that we are legally married it feels as if I’ve hit all the stereotypical ‘milestones of adulthood’– aside from having children (neither myself or my partner want any).

It was strange because until that moment I hadn’t consciously considered it.

On one hand it’s nice to think you’ve hit society’s goals whether or not you think they’re relevant. On another hand it served as a reminder of how I’m getting closer to the ultimate milestone- death, albeit in a roundabout process.

In a parallel train of thought it made me reflect on how I’m not really passionate about anything anymore nor do I have extremely close friendships.

Adulthood is a wild one, but the joy of being an adult is I can make changes towards the things I want.

Photo by Cloris Ying on Unsplash

Yackety-Yak: Life Stages

It’s safe to say marriage is considered a major life milestone, right?

Um…yeah? I’d say so. For those who value it, at least.

Right…

Why?

Sometimes I get anxious. Not in the, I’m having second thoughts way or anything. It’s more, Getting married is a major life mark and I’m suddenly reminded of my own mortality

This is…not the direction I thought we were headed in.

I know, right?

I don’t think it’s out of left field though. I mean, your biggest fear is death and while milestones are traditionally great…

-They also traditionally bring us closer to death.

It can be bittersweet.

In many ways, I think it is.