This week I turned twenty-three. I know it’s not a super special year by most standards, but for me this was one I’d been looking forward to for a while.
Which is why I was surprised when someone had to remind me it was a day away!
I can honestly say I got caught up between the office job and bouncing between houses everyday to look after multiple animals. My boyfriend had even been teasing me with the promise of surprises, so I knew it was coming- I just thought it was farther off for some reason like the date wasn’t in front of my face.
The day before I started to feel down for some reason and went to bed early. The idea was I’d wake up feeling better. Fortunately it worked, but unfortunately it only lasted the first 90-ish minutes or so into my day when it became clear no one at work remembered my birthday. I knew that couldn’t of been the main reason I was upset, so I began thinking it over. Was it stress from work? The news? Social media? Mental fatigue of running around and not getting to go home? Frustration at not knowing what I want to do ultimately and not having the drive to meet old goals? Feeling like I’ve invested in and taken on too much of other’s lives as opposed to focusing on myself?
The more I thought the more I realized this collection of gray clouds had been shifting closer and darkening for some time. I’d just been ignoring it and focusing elsewhere.
I didn’t want to wallow in these topics, so I decided to make some changes. I deleted Twitter and Instagram off my phone, muted those people to give myself a break, and got a lined notepad.
SIDE NOTE: The notepad may seem odd in the mix, but I like physically writing things down- especially when it comes to post idea so it’s huge boost for me. And the best part? IT’S COLLEGE RULED!!
As for the rest of my day it really turned out great. One of my coworkers realized/figured out it was my birthday near the end of the day and slipped out to get a cake. I walked through pouring rain (the kind where you have to wipe your hand down your face) and it was super refreshing. I had dinner with my family at my favorite restaurant. All my house/pet sitting gigs came to a close and I got to sleep in my own bed.
I wasn’t really sure how I’d wrap this post up to be honest. The week just seemed to zip on by so fast I barely had time to really reflect or think hard about anything. There were definitely hiccups that weren’t exactly pleasant, but I don’t see a point on writing it all out/ dwelling. In the end everything was sorted and my moments of stress were alleviated, sooo…ended the week on a high note!
SIDE NOTE: The tried and true method of pushing forward or ‘letting go’ is definitely becoming the way of the future (for me at least). And I think it works best when there isn’t some large build up and you overthink as opposed to just…quietly doing it.
SIDE SIDE NOTE: I told you I didn’t know how to end this! >_>