Normally the question would be; “Where do begin?“, but I already know where to begin.
I split with my boyfriend.
I’m not going to get into it because for one I don’t think anyone reading this is particularly interested in the details and after explaining it to a few friends…I really don’t feel like going through it again.
Anyway, it’s been a couple of days and I feel a bit out of it- maybe even just numb? It’s been one of those things where I go to work and everything is fine (partially because I just got back from vacation and there was a bunch to catch up on), but then I get home and I’m suddenly just going through the motions. I eat, do the usual bathroom routine, and then kill time before going to bed. It only took two days before I was fully caught up at work and unpacked; now leaving me with dead space in both aspects of my day.
Yesterday I watched “What We Do in the Shadows” and tonight I watched “RuPaul’s Drag Race”. I deleted Instagram and Twitter off my phone last night- partially to avoid spoilers and also because I’m just not feeling it right now. I’ve been putting more effort into my work outfits for an extra pep (my coworkers have taken notice so that’s been nice).
I know I’m going to need to start doing things I enjoy which really means trying things I’ve been meaning to do. Some things I’m thinking of include: stretching, pole dancing classes, aerial yoga, riding a horse, trying new hair stuff, going to the Japanese gardens, learning to surf, learning to draw, aaaand getting back to writing somewhere in there.
This post is probably as muted as I feel right now. Meanwhile I’m somewhere between tuning into a documentary on cults or serial killers.